Difficulties i face during O Level periods

Heyeveryone~ I just submitted the JAE form thingy, and yay! I am quite satisfied with my 12 choices~!

Anyways, secondary school has been a good expereience for me, and i miss it alot! Not the freaking school! But i miss my friends and teachers who put in so much effort for us!

Memories...
Secondary 4 was my toughest year! But in that year, i learnt alot. I learnt to approah teachers for help(Which i rarely do) and i also learnt to focus on my studies even more, especially near my O level exams. I also became more competitive because i hate to lose out, and most importantly, i was able to overcome my stress which i never thought i could. Even now when i look back, i keep wondering how on Earth i was able to manage my stress and do my O levels. When i was in lower secondary, I used to admire my seniors, how they were able to become such intelligent people who are able to handle 3 pure sciences. I NEVER expect myself to eventually become one of them (Haha!) and even take triple pure science. People use to say pure science is HARD and DIFFICUILT and blah blah blah. (Even my bro sterotype people who takes those subject) But in reality, those subjects are okay. My biology teacher would say that the answer doesn't matter, its HOW you answer the question, haha! I'll never forget those words.  

Motivation was the key....
I am really (And i mean really) weak in my chinese(I can't even speak chinese properly!) I even thought of giving up chinese! I was put into the top class (What the hell...?) which means i have to face those china people who are so impeccable in their chinese. And the ironic thing is, my friend who is WAY better in chinese compared to me, was in the 2nd class.... So ya, there was once when i thought of switching classes So that i can be in the 2nd class. I told my chinese teacher about it (In my horrible chinese language) and she advised me not to because she thought i was capable of learning chinese, and that i am a diligent student. At first, i was abit reluctant to stay in her class, but then again, i perserver on and stayed in her class.

A week before the chinese O levels, my school had this chinese intensive. I neglected all my subjects for a week(Which was what the teachers encouraged) and focused solely on chinese. I really put in all my heart even thought i hated chinese. But the one thing that really motivated me to go all out was my chinese teacher. I scored the top in my class once for a chinese essay writing, and i was totally flabbergasted. I never thought in a million years that i could actually beat my classmates from china. She showed the whole class my essay, and i felt so motivated to do more essays. I knew i had at least a teeny bit of hope to score in chinese. So in the end i scored a B3, which was really unexpected because i knew i screwed up big tme for my Paper 2 (Haha!) i did not even answer two 6-marks questions, lol! But i knew i did well for my essay writing. I studied (more like memoring) all my notes and essays, and yup, it was not too bad in the end. I expected a C5 at least, but it was a better mark. I thanked my chinese teacher for all her encouragements and i never ever ever ever regretted staying in her class!

But that was not the challenging part yet... Nothing is more harder compared to doing my chinese ORAL... Once again, my chinese teacher is my source of motivation. She told me (After testing my chinese oral) that i was able to talk about my ideas (Relating to the picture) and i was'nt afraid to give my opinions. From that moment on, i realised i must not give up. I knew its really time to improve my chinese, and so i decided to practice oral (approximately 3 days before my exam) and also speak chinese with my mother everyday. Thank god my mother is good in her chinese. She had always been a great help when it comes to chinese! Eventually, i got a merit for chinese oral, and i was so relieve ORAL IS OVER! Hahahaha! 

I give up... Wait no, i tried my best already...
If you think my chinese is weak, wait till you see my physics results... Its atrocious... Ever since i started learning phyiscs in sec 3, i vow never to meet physics again after my O levels. Compared to chinese, physics was really my main weakness. My class is seriously weak in physics, and whats worst, physics has always been the weakness for my school (Yes even in combine science physics) So it is really a no-hope for my class. I was put into the 2nd band for physics, which means i am the last few when it comes to physics (There was only 2 classes for pure physics- The good and bad.) So ya, my band practically flunk physics to the max. We almost never pass our physics tests (Maybe once or thrice in 2 years... Just border line). The amazing thing about physics to us is that we never understand the concept even if we memorise the whole textbook. I know we can't just memorise, but seriously... no matter how hard we learn, how hard we try, how much we force ourselves to LOVE physics, we just don't pass it. Is there like some kind of law in phyiscs that don't  let us pass the subject? Okay, maybe i exaggerated too much, but we really tried our best. I even broke down in tears once infront of the physics textbook because i knew i'll never have good grades for physics. Eventually, most of my friends decided to ditch physics so that they can focus on other subjects. I did the same unfortunately. 

So after my chinese O level exam, i focused more on  my other subjects (Especially chemistry) and just looked through my physics textbook and memorise formulas. That is totally not enough. I never touch my TYS untill June... That was when my physics teacher pleaded us to do our TYS. So ya, i did, and the more i do my TYS, the more angry i got because most of the questions were like alien to me, and when i tried to look through the answer booklet, i was like "I never learn this before!!!" Haha. So in the end, i could not take it anymore. I wanted to give up physics entirely at first, but then i though if i can improve my chinese, so can i for physics! I tried to focus on revising the chapters in the textbooks one by one. That did worked abit, and it also motivated me to continue revising physics properly. But that did not solve my problems entirely.

So once again, i still did not do well for my physics (How ironic) Although i have to say i did improved abit for my first few chapters (Because i had forced myself to revise) It was not easy revising physics as well as learning new chapters, and on top of that, i still have 7 other subjects i have to cope. In the end, i was left with no other choice but to just put my effort into other subjects. My physics teacher understands our difficuilties. He advised us to focus on our TYS and also to consult him anytime. I was'nt pretty sure about the consultation part because i just had TOOOOOO MANY questions to ask, more like too many chapters which i don't understant. That is like going back to square one if you know what i mean. Near my O levels exam, during October, 2 weeks before my O Level english papers, I went for my first night study together with my friends. I only aim to clarify my 1/1000 questions for my physics. Well, the sad thing is, i only managed to ask afew questions becuase there were just too many of my classmates consulting 1 physics teacher, and most of them are the smart ass ones, haha. But i never give up, i realised i did made an effect to improve my physics. Even thought its not extremely useful, at least i had my first step to improving it. So i decided to go for another night study session, and this time, i was lucky to have my physics teacher focused entirly on me. I was so happy. Althought i did not clarify my 1000 questions(Figuratively) i thought it really helped me.

So during my O level period, i struggled(Really struggled) to revised ALLLL my subjects. I'm not really an all-round student, so its really stressful. Through all the torture i got from studying ALLL my subjects within a weeks (Which includes chapter by chapters and memorsing essssaaayyyyssss), i made up my mind to ONLY study physics the day before my physics O Level exam. The goood thing is, there is only one paper on that day, so i did not have to study for any other subjects. Phew! Well... Having said that, i only read through the textbook/TYS and memorise formulas. It was almost similar to what i had done previously (The failed method of studying physics....) But this time, i was more optimistic. I knew deep down that i had done enough practise and had continuesly study physics. All the days which i tried studying physics might just help in my exam. Its like an accumulation of knowlegde and you just bomb everything during the exam. So ya, even if i knew that my chances of scoring in physics is like 0.001%, i knew i did my best already, i had no regrets.

So the next day, i put on a happy smile and convince myself i can do it, i will win the "War"against physics and not get intimidated. Well, that was not exactly true, haha! The paper was harder then hard.... Well, why was it harder then hard? Because my classmates who are potential A1 for physics thought it was HARD... Even the teachers agreed it was way harder then the previous years. 2012 physics paper was a killer paper, and this "killer" instinct only comes after every 2 years... So i was considered unlucky... Despite the difficulty, i did not feel a pinch of sadness! I saw everyone giving the emo face, and i'm like the odd one out having the happy face.... Even my good friend thought i was weird! The truth is, i knew this was coming. I knew that i would evetually not do extremely well. Like i said, i already did my best. Its seriously no use feeling bad for screwing up the paper, as long as you've done your best!!

I thought i would fail my physics O level exam. Like, come on, I practically never pass my physics tests. If i'm lucky enough, i might obtain at least a D7, which is a great achievement already, haha! So ya, i will NEVER EVER consider my Physics result as one of the COP.

But a miracle occurred to me...

I got a B3 for my physics O level exam...

At first i thought Cambrige had gone weird. It was really shocking. I never expect to even obtain a C6, let alone a B3???? I soon realised my friends (Who were the same band as me) also obtain a B or at least a C. My physics teacher was smiling all the way. And even better, my batch did better in physics compared to the previous batch. Well, i was too shock to even feel happy. Maybe it was the bellcurve (Is it spelled like that?) Maybe the paper was just wayyyy tooo hard that they need to shift the bellcurve...

Well, in the end, i learnt one thing, NEVER GIVE UP!!!! You never know miracle might happen if you work harder~

Okay i think i'm done with blogging... 

Well then, I hope to get into the course i want for Poly. Initially i was planning to go JC, but well... I think i'm better in projects and working with people~ I hope to have a good future ahead!

Sayonara~